DAR is like having hang over from yesterday... nn iit really pisses me off.... go out never tell me... go geylang go babyface... drink until like what like tt... reeally hate it man... its like what the hell lahs... no work today so... doesnt mean need to drink till like tt... yahs... given the state u are in now how are u going to drive back yur bike.... drink or do what know yur limits lahs... i dun wan to flare up in front of you... you just duno yur limits lahs...

hey.... dar... stop calling me wu fang lahs... iim back in my hostel again... so freaking sian sia.... nth to do nn rotting my tiime... ii should be do more productiive things right... nn ii think it means being beside him... time fliies beiing wiith him... ii love you... hmm.. he went to my house bai nian nn ii just dun get iit why he keep wanting to be in the living room... iim like so pai seh lahs... but he is just so at ease... hmm...

its been sooo long since ii last blog... been busy recently... hmm... yahs... right now ii am at nsc nn peiming just told me that they will be employing me... but only for $30 per day... when ii heard it, it was like wad the hell $30 nn u expect me to do all the shit work man... but wad to do... ii have an order to clear... so have to shut my mouth nn accept... ii cant do anything until my discharge... nn ii just have to press on man.. so sick lahs... hmm... sooo happy going home later..nothings beats hearing iim able to go back home... and get to see my dar... sleep tgt go out tgt... sooo happy to just be with him.. haas... gonna see precious later... sooo long never see her lers.... hmm... staying at nsc just bored me so much... i wan to leave this place... nothing to do... and ust like wasting my time away man... dar dar.... iim gonna see u later... happy mahs.... it was really sad to hear that u love me with reserve... didnt expect this from u... it really pains me so much to know tt... and although u say now u wont lers... but still it had some impact on me which ii cant put it to words... i love u and ii do it wholeheartedly...

hmmm.... here ii am in my hostel.... so bored... dying soon man... dar... ii miss u so much... yeah... tml can see you lers... so happy.... hmm... dun always so late than go back lahs... later tired.... weekdays gt work... be a good boy kaes.... and dun talk to me soo loud... you talk to me as though ii am far far away from you.... talk to me sweeter nn softer k... ii love you sooo much....

what seems to be the hardest in life.... knowing your love one right next to you but not being able to be with him... on second thoughts... consolling oneself that we are still breathing in the same oxygen... he's so near... yet so far... cant wake up this morning sia... super tired... hmm... it seems as though ii am invisible in hostel... for 2 days... the staffs can come in and wake my fren but not me... every morning they will come in and only say... clare wake up... hmm... wad about jesslyn... how come no one call one sia... i can sleep like nobody business... hmm... ii dun think iim invisible leis... but why every one treating me as ii am one... ii think iim just like wasting time there lahs... super stupid thing to do there... everyday doing the same old thing... nothing else.... ii wan my bf... at least will do more productive things when iim wiith him... heees... hmmm.... one girl came back with 20 over love bites sia... siao one... bite so many for wad sia... another one stay over at bf place... hmmm.... cant imagine his face if he know about me... hahahas..... think he will scream his head off man....

dar!!! do u know how much ii miss you.. guess u will never know... guess u will never believe that ii miss you sooooo much... have my wish for 2009 come true?? uu are begiinniing to mean more than any others to me... how ii wiish to be just beside you every moment... not saying this because of honeymoon period... ii meant wad i said... this long lost feeling iis coming back to me... iit wiill be so great iif i could be next to you after your hard day at work... be wiith you in times of hardship and joy... ii dun have a really good future but ii will try to work hard to be that perfect giirl you have in mind... not adding on to your burden but to share you burden... i dun ask for liiving like a queen... ii just wan you to truly love me nn nothing else... ii miss you ii love you ii need you...