iim still home... hmm.. just woke up... super tired....
watch twilight with him on monday... its like thousand years since ii last catch a movie show.... he always nv fails to brighten up my day... so long since ii felt this... hmmm... ii love you...

boring boring... at nsc now for the instructor camp... hmm.. just wondering will are the others all so hyper... ii just feel like sleeping... not abit of interested... so tired sia... hmm...

gosh... so freakiing tiired... luckily today no need to go nsc... if not will diie siia... iit feels so great to be hiidiing iin my blanket... of cos wakiing up wiith hiim besiide me... tiime just fliies when ii am wiith hiim.. dont know why.. tiime fliies when u are happy.. iim happy iim blessed only when he's wiith me.. :) 355 more days to discharge... still a long way to go i know... but 375 days of my term had past... pressiing on.. hmm... diet plan gonna be crash when christmas comes... still got 4kg more to lose... freak... in less than a month to lose that 4kg is like hell...

ooo... iim home.. home sweet home... but need to go back tomolo lers... sian... hmm... met him at art park... but he seems so..... duno what to say... but seeing him just makes me feel so happy.... just scared that ii will be disturbing him... hais...

yeh... iim going home tonight... but need to go nsc tml morning... sian... then sat go camp sun home sweet home again... till tuesday... so shit ii know.. so troublesome... but what to do... boring.. 11 more months to go... perseverance is all ii need...

ooo... woke up late today.. so freakiing tiired... ii thiink ii'm gettiing lazier nn laziier... hmm.. christmas iis comiing... 9 more days...

oooo... monday's blue... nn my stomach is cramped... hmm... spent a realli wonderful weekend... thanks so much for being by my side... ii love you... one big round nn ii'm back with you.. someone from the place ii would like to be... hmm... ii love being there.. ii miss being there... iit's really a place ii am familiar wiith... hmm... dun worry lahs.. he wont be mine ever again... ii beliieve that once gone forever gone.. nothiing gonna be the same way as it used to be... we're just fren mere fren.. nothing more than that.. i miight had miissed him few months back.. but not now... now iin my miind there's only flashback of you... seeiing u every weekend iis what ii looked forward most... but leaviing you after that iis what ii hated most.. hmm.... dun gamble too much lers kaes.. dun liike to see u fretting over money... wiin or lose iit's stiill a gamble... iin liife there are a lot of thiings we need to gamble.. but sometime the payout of gambliing iis too biig that u will regret for liife... learn to stop gambliing money before iits too late when u lose more than money.... ii dun wan to stop u from doiing that cos ii dun wan to be like her.. iif ii stop u u miight just do iit behiind my back ii rather allow u at least i wiill stiill know what u are doiing right?? ii wan u to be happy nn nothiing else... not to stress you nt to quarrel wiith you... experiience too much of stress nn quarrel iit's tiime for a change...

ii miiss you.. nn ii love you....

ooooo... iim home... home sweet home.. cause ii told him ii will carry on windsurfing... yahs... nvm lahs... ii'll just work hard for another year nn off ii will go back to my cosy home.. oh my... my dad's hand is like so swollen... heartpain sia... he got 4 jab nn 8 stitches... hmm... not going windsurfing today le.. staying at home...

dar dar... ii love having u by my side... ii love u...

ii so siick of ag home... why do i need to be force to do thiings ii dont liike... ii've already lost iinterest iin saiiliing nn wiindsurfiing... y have to be me.. there are stiill so many other giirls... bri winnie chelsie clare... y me and joyce... dont accept it confinement accept it i lost my stand... ii hate wiindsurfiing... i hate beiing in competitive wiindsurfiing... i dun miind doing it for leisure... i dun like competition... i hate losing...

dun ask me how much ii love you.. ii wouldnt know how to ans... and ii thiink that love cannt be measured.. just know that ii love you... ii miiss you... a new start iis not easy for me... ii wont have the confiidence iin myself nn guys.. that's why ii wiill turn to giirls back than... 9 out of 10 guys are lyiing... and iit always wiill be.. dun love me iif you are out to hurt me kaes... ii cannt afford to be hurt... nn ii hate the feeliing of beiing hurt... iif uu stiill miiss her let me know.. iif u cant get over her let me know.. if one day she returns ii wiill walk away.. dont worry.. ii just want you to be happy... ii wont make a fuss out of iit... although iit wiill hurt but ii am sure ii wiill be able to cope wiith iit... just let me know nn dont liie to me will you?? all ii ask from u iis dun liie to me.. ii dun miind you stiill haviing her iin your heart just dont bluff me...

ii sorry that ii cant be a normal girlfriiend.. i know iit wiill be hard for you.. we're not able to be liike what normal couples are.. am ii beiing very selfiish to step iinto thiis relatiionshiip now?? ii know ii am not that iideal giirl every guy wants to have but ii wiill try my best to giive you the best... ii know ii'm bad to the core iin the past but ii'll change.. ii'll try my very best to change.. and can you stop askiing about my past.. iit's so......................... dont wiish to be liiviing iin the past... we should talk about our future.. dont keep diigiing my past... iif you were to liike me u liike me for who ii am now not who ii was riight... why diidnt we know each other earliier.. everythiing wiill be diifferent.. so much different...

ii know ii'm an iidiiot towards love... too long no boyfriiend.. giive me some tiime to be the best k... wiill ii ever mean more than her to you.. ii know you stiill cant get over her so stop sayiing you had got over her... ii know iit takes tiime... ii can waiit dont worry...

spent a really wonderful biirthday even though he was my greatest hope to bii there... hmm... anyway he wasnt therecos he went to st john island to elebrate his birthday.. so iit's alriight lahs... ii'm falliing for hiim.. greatest fear iis no confidence towards myself... ii'm just a faiilure.. tons of failed relationshiip... ii'm just a lousy giirl.. nevertheless ii stiill enjoyed

ii'm stiill tiired... that stupiid really lack of mother's love man... ii'm jjst wondering how can a giirl be that..................... she's reallii one ii see eat liike there's no tomorrow man... every min every sec she iis liike eatiing.. yahs... the most ridiculous thiing iis that she had a bf... nnn what the hell.. nn ii cant fiind man.. ii'm not tryiing to say ii'm better than her or what.. it's just that she iis superb digustiing... what the hell lahs... at least ii not so disgustiing riight.. iit really beyond what ii can beliieve...

zw... ii miiss you...

oh my... ii'm super tiired... cannt stand iit... feel liike faiintiing man... thiink ii becomiing a piig lers siia... keep eatiing nn eatiing... oh my... cannt stand iit... goiing to gaiin weiight soon... what the....

ii miiss you...

ii'm miissiing you... yahs.. ii'm startiing to miiss you..

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fat ass iirriiate me agaiin.. wad the hell.. just hope that one day she wiill leave.. or ii leave as soon as possiible... just cannt stand her... she a freakiing hyprocriite.. actiing iin front of others.. have never seen a mother liike her before.. damn freakiing digustiing... all she know iis to open her biig fat mouth.. talkiing wiithout goiing through her mind.. spliitiing everythiing that came across her miind... braiinless moron.. wad the.... complaiiniing everythiing that iis before her... giiviing extra mother love to all her freaking daughters... dont she know that her daughter iis the one fuckiing around.. everytiime say the giirls in ag very lok... her own daughter leiis.. fuck wiith so many guys already she stiill thiink that she iis the perfect giirl on earth... own daughter lyiin to her all the way nn she didnt even notice... stupiid riight...

oooo... ii diid a verii stupiid thiing yesterday... ii was hopiing round madlessly when he diid not reply my msg... ii hate thiis feeliing and ii never want thiis feeliing.. he wasnt supposed to mean so much to me nn ii wasn't suppose to fall for hiim... thiis iisn't goiing to happen.. ii wont let thiis thiing happen.. ii'm happy wiith what ii have now.. happy wiith what ii am now... ii wasn't supposed to have hiim iin my liife... nn he wasn't supposed to come iinto my liife.. yes... receiiviing hiis call was great.. but not receiiviing hiis call was diisatrous... ii cant let thiis happen to me.. or am ii just thiinkiing too much.. all iis nothiing but just a normal fren...