wow... great.. cat 1 from now till 3pm... so great sia.. no need to go down to the water... no need to be under the sun... hmmm.. talk to him on the phone just now... he really never faiils to brighten up my day... enjoyed talkiing to hiim but iit miight just be all that we wiill be.. all that we can move to.. ii love my cosy offiice man.. can slack all the way.. comfortable nn relax to stay iin here.. no need to be iin the hot place... goiing shoppiing later wiith my preciious... haas... when am ii able to go back man...

falling for his trap on 1/12... and iits really a fall that ii wiill never forget.. yahs.. dun deny that he treat me really good when we are just together... but all thiis are just liies he made up.. afterall other then me, he stiill have a wife and 3 other giirlfren.. wad the.. one of hiis gf was wiith hiim liike almost 5 years knowiing that he has a wiife nn 3 kiids.. nn ii only got to know when we are together for 1 year... ii know ii'm damn stupiid... but he iis really just too good at hiidiing.. thiings was pretty new nn fresh when ii'm wiith hiim.. iit was realli fun to be wiith hiim at fiirst... but ii realli learnt from hiim all the stupiid thiings.. gambliing wiith hiim was realli fun.. hiis miin bet was always 500.. and one niight he can wiin over $10000.. but when he lose he also wiill lose that much.. and when he lost hiis freakiing attitude came agaiin.. anyway not too much about a gambler's liife.. thiinkiing back ii thiink ii'm wastiing my tiime beiing wiith hiim.. diidnt do any productiive thiings... just wasting liife away...

goosh... reach nsc early iin the morning... so freakiing tiired man... ii slept early yesterday.. but ii was woken up at about 4am because ii was biiten by mosquito... so iitcy lahs... damn tiired now... goiing to launch soon... no wiind but sun reallii biig...

sLaCkiiNg iiN ThE OffiiCe FoR tHe WhoLe MoRniiNg... TwO sLaCkErs.... joyce had been watchiing the stupiid gossiip giirl show for the whole morning.. laughiing to herself... wad the... just duno why she iis so iin love wiith the show... ask her study her powerboat not so hardworkiing... hmm.. goiing out to sea soon... yes.. and the sun iis stiill super biig.. sat, sun, mon, tue, wed, thur... ii'm goiing to get burnt... oh my... wad the... so hard then get myself faiir nn now goiing to get tan agaiin... eeeeeeek.... ii know ii wiill look damn shiit when ii'm tan.. liike diirty diirty like tt.. but what to do... cannt help iit... haiis... another month to go then can go home.. what the hell.. what shiit confiinement siia.. he saiid he confiined the rest but not me iit wont be faiir.. yahs.. shiit.. they also nv confiine lahs... the new year confiinement all confiine together already what.. what more he wan siia.. whatever iit iis... just wan to faster fiiniish my term nn off ii'll go.. back home.. back to where ii belong.. home.. a place really call home.. nn not liiviing iin the same place as that fat ass who only know how to iirriitate people nn nothiing else.. seeiing her fake smiile reallii piiss people off... how can she be so fake.. only tok to us properly iin front of laopa... nn behiind she iis liike shiit...

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YaHs.. LoVe iiS aLL iiT tAkEs.. ii DuN BeLiiEvE iiT aT aLL... LoVe iiS aLL iiT TaKeS tO GeT HuRt... ThiiS ii BeLiiEvE... LoVe HaD HuRt Me ToO MaNy TiiMeS FoR Me To TrUsT iiT AgAiiN... DuN SaY ThiiNg YoU DuN MeAn iiT.. nn DuN EvEr SaY ThiiNgS JuSt FoR ThE SaKe Of SaYiiNg... ii DuN BeLiiEvE iiT.. ii CaNt BriiNg MySeLf To BeLiiEvE iit.. My HeArT iiS DeAd nn NeVeR WiiLL iiT Be aLiiVe AgAiiN.. DuN TrY tO HeLp Me.. iiT's uSeLeSs.. ii HaD TriiEd iiT MySeLf.. iiT's iiMpOsSiiBLe... NoThiiNg CaN BriiNg My HeArT BaCk aLiiVe..

ii ThiiNk ShE's CuTe...

you have brought lots of fun and memoriies to me.. ii know ii'm the one being heartless back than... dun return the hurt back to me... just let me have the mr right memoriies of you... calling when you are alone doesnt give me any sense of happiness... calling behind her back doesnt make me happy... yes.. multi love is what you saiid.. but iit's obviious that she means more than anyone to you... i stepped out iin the fiirst place nn ii know never wiill we step back iin agaiin... miisses for you is beyond words... and iit seems as though iit's all waste to you... ii've triied to hold on my emotions.. ii've stopped myself from calliing you.. beiing friiends iis really hard for me.. ii'm sorry for beiing selfiish to only thiink for myself.. but ii cannot afford to get myself hurt agaiin... ii know ii'm useless.. i fail as a friend nn even as a giirlfriiend.. ii piickiing myself up.. tidying up my liife... just be happy wiith her iif she means so much to you.. and dun always talk to other giirl iif you cant afford to lose her...